I wrote this several days ago and am now just getting a chance at posting it. Lotsa ish has been happening at the Loveday household 😦
Between trying to get the household settled from moving and lack of sleep – the worst of it all went down today, today I had to say good bye to a part of our little family. My 13 year old cat Cali is now resting peacefully in the back yard along with a piece of my heart. It’s been very difficult to get back in the swing of things – but hey I’m trying, I guess that counts.
Ok…..phew…..so I’ve been reading a lot of posts lately, which makes me feel like a creeper…lol Anyone else feel like that? I’m looking for witty people who, like me, are trying to get themselves out there. I can relate to them and don’t feel that self doubt monster trying to creep up on me. I like what they have to say and even comment on what they’ve written about. I follow them in hopes that they too will see something in my posts they can relate to. What stops me up short is those people who are so technical – don’t get me wrong, I don’t think it’s a bad thing….it’s just not a me thing.
I read what they’ve written and I re-read it because I didn’t process it the first time. It makes me feel like the book I’ve just written was done in red crayon on pre-school tablet paper. It shouldn’t, since no-one writes the same, and everyone that writes has their own way of doing things. I’m one of those kinds of people who takes what they’ve seen and implements it into the story. I use feelings and gestures that can be universally “seen” when you read what I’ve written. I don’t keep charts, or pdf’s or lists or whatever else you can think of to keep me focused. I’ve tried it….several times and I tend to misplace them or throw them away because I never revert to them. This is stupid because I usually find myself needing that information sometime later in the story.
I read these posts and see professionalism in what they are saying and I know everything I’ve written to date has been anything but professional. Does this hold me back? Will it make me look bad in the long run? How can anyone take me seriously if I can’t be serious?
It’s rather disheartening….but then so is the fact that I can’t focus on what they are saying, because I just don’t get their line of thinking. For those who post in such a way, do you find it amateurish and just plain run of the mill for others like me to post in such a random way? Or is it nice to read thoughts from an un-discovered person, like me, who doesn’t try to get to technical and can relate to others insecurities using humor to do so?
I’m not fond of big words or terms I can’t explain. I would be short selling myself and creating a lot of hot air for others to read – that I myself don’t understand.
I’d like to think creativity comes in many forms through many walks of life and hope that others see it as well…professional or not.
For now I’ll stick to being me, it’s less complicated that way. I’ll let the chips fall as they may with hopes I’m not ruining my career before it ever gets officially started.
So are you a creative spirit or a technical junkie? Inquiring minds want to know – or at least my inquiring mind does!
For those of you, who find the humor in what I’ve written in the past, thank you. To those of you who didn’t…it’s ok, I totally understand!
Thanks for stopping in. I look forward to hearing what you have to say 🙂